White walls welcomed my eyes when I slowly opened it.
　　I quietly roamed my eyes. As usual, Mommy was sleeping on my bedside while holding my hand. Andrei, on the other hand, was an idiot looking at the ceiling while sitting on the floor. If there is only one word miserable then that is what he looks like now. Slowly his gaze fell on me.
　　His eyes widened slightly in shock but that was immediately replaced by other emotions. Sadness, pity, remorse and grief.

　　I slowly closed my eyes and gently touched my stomach causing Mommy to wake up.
　　Silence remained with us, no one dared to speak. Waiting for whatever I do.
　　"Did I ... lost them?" I barely manage to say then gently open my eyes. I just stared at the ceiling waiting for their confirmation.
　　I heard my mom's little sob before holding my hand. "They are now at peace princess. They are now in a good place" she said and tighten the grip on my hand.
　　I closed my eyes and let my tears flow. "Is being with me not a good place for them Mommy?" I said bitterly.
　　She immediately wiped away my tears and kissed my forehead. "Dear, I know it hurts. But we need to accept that they are gone now." she said gently.

　　I slowly opened my eyes then looked at her. "Why mom? Why is this happening to me? I didn't do anything bad. Why me? Why us?" I said with a broken voice.
　　She hugged me and caressed my hair. "Do not think that this is punishment or anything. You should always think that everything is God's plan" she said.
　　"Why did he give it if he will took it back? It's so unfair Mommy..it's so unfair. I didn't even take care of them, I didn't even touch them." I said while crying hard.
　　"Ssshh .. Everything will be fine too my princess. I know it hurts so be strong." Mommy comforted me.

　　I hugged her back and broke down.
　　"The moment I saw too much blood running through my legs. I know at that moment I lost them. But still, I hope .. I wished that they will be saved Mommy." I complain here.
　　"Calm down son. Sshhh." Mommy let me in while still stroking my hair.
　　I wanted to stop and calm down but I couldn't. Too much pain, too much pain.
　　"Why mom? Why my children?" I said again while sobbing loudly.
　　Mommy let go of me and faced my face. "Princess, calm down hija. It will stress you out." crying Mommy pleaded as she looked at me.
　　I just shook my head and kept crying. "I want to die Mom. I want to die. I want to be with them Mommy. Please." I said as I plugged out the dextrose on my wrist.
　　"Oh my god. Cassandra please stop this" Mommy pleaded hysterically, crying while holding my hand.
　　"Mommy I want to be with them. I can't leave them there alone." I cry please as I forcefully remove those that pierced me.
　　"Baby .." he called as he grabbed my hands tight. He is now holding me and not Mommy anymore.
　　I paused for a moment and met his eyes.
　　New tears build up in my eyes. "Why? Didn't I become a good wife to you?" full of resentment I said.
　　He shook his head and stroked my face. "You are great, you are the best wife Cassandra." he said with full sincerity.
　　I smiled bitterly and let my tears flow. "I no longer know what I believe Andrei. I'm tired, I'm too tired to think." I said.
　　"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry baby." he said as his sad eyes looked at me.
　　"Please do me a favor Andrei." I said then removed my hand he was holding.
　　"Let's separate. Let's file an annulment." I said and averted my eyes.
　　I could see his stiffness in the corner of my eye and then he held my hand again. "Don't, please baby, I can't. I already lose our baby, please don’t leave me too,” he said weakly, I heard him sobs.
　　I slowly turned around and looked at him. "This marriage was totally a mess Andrei. Can't you see it?" I said bitterly.
　　"We can fix this baby, please don't leave me." he begged then touched my face.
　　I immediately removed him from me and looked at him angrily. "Damn it Andrei! At least sometimes please give me a break!" I said along with my crying.
　　"Can't you see? I need space! I need a fvckin time to heal Andrei! I just lost my babies! I just lost them Andrei! And it will not help me to continue to see you, I can not see you because I remember you and your girl are the reason why I lost them! "I added and sobbed in tears.
　　He did not answer and let me cry.
　　"Please, let me go" I said weakly then looked at him.
　　I could see the pain on his face. He slowly stood up and moved away from me a little.
　　"Will you be happy when I'm gone?" he asked.
　　"Yes" I answered simply and averted my eyes.
　　I heard him sigh. "If that's what you want, okay. Just send me the papers." trace the weakness in his voice.
　　I could only nod at him without looking at him.
　　I was slightly surprised when he approached me and raised my eyes to him.
　　"Iloveyou" he said with his bloodshot eyes and kissed my forehead.
　　"Goodbye" he whispered softly and left.
　　I was just dumbfounded at the door when he get out as tears flowed down my cheeks quietly.
　　I felt Mommy hug me as she stroked my back.
　　"I lost everything mom. Daddy..my babies..my husband." I mumbled.
　　"Ssshhh. I'm still here. I'm still here." Mommy comforted me.
　　"I'm so hurt mom. I can't stand being with him. I just can't." I explain the decisions I made.
　　"I understand. I understand." Mommy answered immediately.
　　"I did him a favor Mommy. I unchained him from our marriage." I spoke again and smiled bitterly.
　　"Rest Cassandra. Everything will be fine too." Mommy whispered.
　　"Mom" I said and let go of her hug.
　　"Yes my princess" she replied full of love and understanding as she met my gaze.
　　"I want to go to America first" I said with pleading eyes.
　　She let out a deep sigh before hugging me again. I heard her soft cry as she stroked my hair which she liked to do to me.
　　"Is that what you want?" she insisted. I just nod and hugged her tightly
　　"I want to rest Mommy. I want to escape this pain for a while." I whispered and let my tears flow again for the nth time.